

“What initially attracted me to the site is their brand of ‘inclusivity’ and feeling like anyone and everyone could do it, so I felt less anxiety about putting myself out there,” Kvlt said. The name SuicideGirls refers to the idea that women who deviate from conventional beauty standards with tattoos, piercings, and brightly colored hair commit a form of “social suicide.” The site began as a place for sexy misfits with names like Midnight, Annasthesia, and Fishball to celebrate their differences. Explicitly pornographic images and videos including penetration, spreading, or “money shots” aren’t allowed, and models are encouraged to play up their unique, natural beauty in their photos-like an edgier, tatted-up Playboy. Launched in 2001 during the early years of internet porn and personal blogs, SuicideGirls is a members-only platform and online community where models submit artful, fully nude photo sets and interact with fans through blog posts, videos, and comments. Post- #MeToo, the business of SuicideGirls deserves a closer, more critical look. The site stayed in business in spite of the early public scrutiny, but former models say its policies regarding prospective models and compensation for nude photo sets haven’t aged as well. In 2005, a group of models left the site and took to LiveJournal, raising allegations of exploitative practices against SuicideGirls’ reportedly male-dominated corporate structure. But recent cultural conversations about the importance of safe, ethically made porn have raised questions about performer safety and fair business practices in the industry-issues that have followed SuicideGirls for years. SuicideGirls ostensibly harbored a safe space for alternative performers like Kvlt. It is the reason I am in the porn industry today.” I thought it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. “Finally, a place where someone like me could belong. “Finding SuicideGirls was like this ‘Hallelujah’ moment,” Kvlt told the Daily Dot.

For Kvlt, an aspiring model with long black hair, tattoos, and a lip ring-all unlikely to land them a gig posing with a mainstream porn site-seeing SuicideGirls was a revelation. They came across the site in 2009 and were taken with the tattoo-sleeved, nose-pierced, nude models. Kvlt, who is nonbinary and uses they/them pronouns, was 14 years old and fascinated by tattoos, piercings, and Playboy models. When adult performer Espi Kvlt discovered alt porn site SuicideGirls, they were immediately hooked.
